last post of 2012

I started this blog approximately 4 years ago. It was after my first semester of college, and I wanted a good outlet, and an excuse to spend more time on the internet. So it greatly saddens me that this blog has all but died in 2012. Sure, I have only posted 12 times (out of the 179 total both numbers counting this particular post) in the year of 2012, so that is admittedly a disappointing turn out. I am averaging one post a month, whereas back in the days, i averaged about once a week. Hell, my last post was back in August, and that wasn't even relevant. You'd have to go back to mid-July to have anything of value found here. I really want to be able to say that I will post here again more in the future, but I just don't see it happening. I might be able to squeak out a couple here and there, but I expect my count for 2013 to be even lower than 2012, and that disappoints me.

Me not posting, does not mean that nothing happened to me in the past 6 months. Lots of good things have happened in my post-college world. And lots of things haven't happened yet, which is the source of endless frustration. We'll start with the lows, so that we can end on the highs. There are really just 2 big low points to discuss.

That awesome job I had at the Science Center? that ended in September. It was always going to be a part time job, but they had told me it would last until November, so getting cut-off early was a huge bummer. September was a hard month. Knowing that your job, that you are good at, and enjoy, is ending is a hard pill to swallow, and it was easily my lowest point post-graduation. the promises of that job leading to something bigger were not being fulfilled, and still haven't, and that really upsets me. I do my best to tell myself to be optimistic about it for the spring, but my hopes are fairly low, to be honest.

I still live at home. This is another bit that makes me sad at times, but I am working towards a vague goal of moving out in May and/or the summer. I realized that my original goals that i put forth for moving out, within a few months of each other, were unrealistic, and therefore unobtainable. So I am trying a new approach, and setting a long term goal, and will do my absolute best to reach it. I know that a lot of my depression will be cured by finding my own place to live. Not that my mom hasn't been really great, and accommodating about my staying at home; she has. But i just want a place to call my own... decorate how i want, put stuff where i want, and finally unpack all my boxes of stuff. I still have boxes from move out that i refuse to unpack simply due to the finality that that implies in my head.

Oh, and a 3rd negative. my cat died. but i really don't want to talk about that, so we'll just leave it alone. 

I do not think that any person, or animal, could ever love me as much as this cat did. If you ever met her, and saw her, you'd understand and agree that that is not an exaggeration.

onto the positives. (what could be more positive than a kitten? and no, i don't have a new kitten)


I do have a new job. One that I like a lot, actually. I am working for a catering company, doing mostly server work, but occasionally I get to try my hand at bar tending, which is a lot of fun. The shifts for it are very long, which can be annoying at times, but it is all made bearable by the people I work with. I have been able to meet and make friends with some really fun people, and a lot of my coworkers are around my age, so that is a big plus. Mik works there, and was actually able to lobby to get my a job, so I am very appreciative of that. Just a classic example of it being who you know.

I am still dating Kelly, which I am very thankful for. Seriously, if it wasn't for her, my spare time would be dismally lonely, what with the majority of my friends living so far away. I am quite thankful to have a loving girlfriend, and best friend to hang out with whenever and where ever.

probably her reaction to finding out i put a picture of her here.

Video games and comics have been a huge positive. I have an ever growing collection of comics, which bring me eternal joy. I still stand by my plan to collect and display comic books in my future home, compared to the normal books that most people prefer to display.

and this isn't even all of them, just the largest collection in one place.

video games have also been a big success. in lieu of getting something fancier, like an iPhone (and having to pay for that monthly), i decided to get a 3DS as a treat to myself back in november. so i have that, a new mario game, a new pokemon game (which is possibly my favorite one yet), played through and beat Lego Batman 2: DC Superheros with kelly, and that was a blast. probably my favorite lego game, but that was because of all the characters i could be in it. it was a dream come true. still working our way through Lego Lord of the Rings, which is very detailed. I am also playing assassins creed 3, which is entertaining thus far.

old vs what i upgraded to

one of the biggest positives of recent memory is that i have been able to be busy lately. For so long during the summer, and into the fall, I was just sitting around and not doing very much. It really added to the depression to not have anything to go out and do, and so I am very thankful for how eventful my December has been. I only hope that my next few months are as good. I was able to see my best friends for a weekend down in Wilmington so that was a lot of fun.

being not so photogenic

one being overly photogenic.

Also got to see my dad and ron, along with meeting most of ron's family, which was pretty cool for xmas. Seriously, my December was awesome and busy. look

all those little blue things? those are events for work, or personal stuff. i was busy.

Well, I think that about sums things up. I know I am glossing over things, and didn't mention a lot that happened (like hanging out with Aana more often, and meeting her kitten) or the amount of food I have scored from working at a catering company, or the random trip to Wilmington back in october that allowed Kelly & I to see Meagan again, which was super awesome. But, to anyone that reads this (and it should be atleast like 4 people considering I am posting this on all channels of the internet that I have), I hope to stay up on this blog more, but if not, if you have a Tumblr, I basically live on there, and post a great deal more. it even has the same url, so it should be fairly simple. Also, mostly for Dino's sake, I think I am getting a facebook in the near future. It will be filled with links to either this blog or my Tumblr, just to reinforce people going to that. let's hope for an awesome 2013. Mine sure has plenty of potential. :)